Saturday, January 31, 2009

lets play catch up!

Good morning to all its like 2:08am and uhm i'm getting from an ok night with the one's i call my luvies. They brought me home off the strength that i get up on time to go to church with two of them tomorrow however i jus had to play catch up. I figured since i have not been on to post or to read lately i should do it now since in a few i'm going to go take a shower an paint my nails so i can look nice for the lord. Lets see where to start first,hmmm... Ok big news my right leg(best friend) isn't leaving for the army as of yet so we still have time to jus be us together. Uhm my phone is being a stupid dummie jerk once again an not charging so i as well my other closest decided that i should just buy another an not bother with my insurance company cause its such a f'n hassle. So another PDA here i come! Uhm, what else.... tomorrow i supposed to go to church for like the first time a long time and i feel like i need it like i should have been before but idk i do not like sitting alone at church sometime i can be so restless if the sermon doesn't pertain to me. I've realized even more how i do need a second part time job like i needs more monies. like its necessary its detrimental completely crucial so i can sit back an relax an stack. While i was away from blogger i went an seen my bloody valentine good movie as well as notorious another good one. okay must cut it short gotta go take me a nice long hot shower.


ALWAYS REMAiN POSiTiVE

Monday, January 26, 2009

thoughts from today

Let me start off saying good evening to all!! I hope that everybodies day went well.My day was pretty egh...i guess you could say usual. I started thinking about my best friend leaving me to go to his basic training which is all the way in Georgia i believe its quite depressing if you ask me granted he's going to do what he feels is right for him so i guess its not that bad. But i will miss him without a doubt i will, i may jokingly say i can't stand him beat him up (he does the same with me its all in play) i do care for him deeply. i let him know that one night after chilling and he said he felt the same however i reinforced it even more with a second text but he never responded which through me off so i thought to just let it go. i had feelings for him other than friendship but additional to it.However, i dropped all thoughts of that a long time ago well sometime last year. He will remain my best friend and i'm cool with that. He leaves in exactly three days,he will mot be back until like July i would cry but like i said do not like to cry. Another thought that popped into my brain was how innocent some children are. While i was at work two children came into my daycare well center. Beofre i finish that thought let me explain what i do; i work in the family court house where i live and i work in the Children's Center there. Now that i explained where i work i will explain what i do. I play along with the children we get in that day depending on the age of the child i read to them, i play board games with them, and just be the kid that i have within me.We get the children that are either in the middle of their parents crap,seperated from their biological parents, jacked up fathers they have or mother or both. When i start my shirt which varies but neway we do not always get any kids in the center. Now back to my story we got these two girls in today Sparkle, 6 & Renee, 8. They were adorable playful children who have active imaginations as well as hyperactive mind set's. They came in at about 2pm and and didn't leave till 4pm. When they first arrived i took their coats and backpacks and asked them their names and where they went to school, they responded and they were so consumed with the fact that they could play with all the toys within their reach that they said could we really play with everything here? I said yes and they were off. 5 minutes into their playing this caucasion man appears in the room and ask's are the children here to the mother, and she said yes they were my boss who very rudely said you have to wait for the mother to bring them to you outside of the center. Sometimes i wonder if my boss has any manners. Any who-- the girls step out and go with their new lawyer i later found out. While they were out i assist the mother with the intake sheet and i realize that she doesn't spell very well. And it made me wonder how does she read to them at night. I also figured out that she doesn't read all that well either so i took it upon myself to fill out the intake sheet for her. So ne who to the part that mad me realize how innocent children are. The oldest Renaee goes to her mother i like her speaking of me, saying that i was really nice, and that wishes to stay forever. Mind you she has never been to the center before and was only there so far for like 10 or 15 minutes. it made me wonder do they cling to everyone they meet that is nice to them it was so genuine and so like heartfelt that it made me wanna be a teacher even more than i am now. I do not know what their mother was their for but i do know shes a respondent to whom ever petitioned her there. But maybe that's just me but yea. Another thing was so while i was waiting for the bus to go home from work, i was rockin to my ipOd and chatting on facebook until my hands got to cold so i went back to just listening to my ipOd i seen this kid i used to bop around with along with other friends from when i used to smoke and drink and thought i was cool. i turned around thinking maybe he didn't see me but that was a bust casue sure enough he did like usual. He stopped talked eyed me up and down ( i really dislike when a guy starts a conversation and you can feel their eyes roaming an no longer looking at you in your face, ugh disgusted) ne who he was speaking to me about how he was just coming from his job as a waiter and i said that was cool because around here you can make almost $250 a shift. he was like its cool for rii now. i was like okay understood and then i persisted to ask about school meaning was he enrolled in school. And guess what the answer was uh no," no more school for me i'm done" his words exactly. The last time i checked he was in night school for high school and that to me alone is a bit of a turn off a non educated man that didn't want to broaden his horizons. I feel that every one from every ethnic group should educate himself farther than just high school its not appealing to me if your not at least considering college-community or 4 years heck even a trade school like come on there's somuch bigger things than settling for to live and work in New Rochelle. But i swear that kid has a thing for me but i think its a lust thing an he's inly like 18 or 19, as my momma always told me you don't date younger you date older and wiser. But thas pretty much it for my day at least for now, yea thas it.
impulsive thought/statement: i must say that ever since i started to blog i looked around for some other's blog and i must say that i came across one that caught and captured my eye since like last week when i started blogging, the author of the blog has captivated me and my love to read something interesting you must and should check out KIMBOLACITY its real,humourus and just all out original she keeps you wondering at least me.
ALWAYS REMAiN POSiTiVE
xOxOx

Saturday, January 24, 2009

my saturday



HELLO ALL!!! well i will start like this as you read or not i posted before at like 10am that i was supposed to go shoppin with mha bestest/cousin Cee, i did and like i said b4 that i may have planned to get wut i said i say and i try to stay firm on the faint thought that i will just get exactly wut i said i would well that was a dream. i copped two pairs of kiCksz, two shirts and a book that sounds real good its called Convicts Candy(sounds pretty gd). while we were out me and Cee were discussing my plans for the fall, which is to go away for college in upstate New York; Cortland to be exact. i really am excited & elated to go however definitely fearful as well as apprehensive. i say this do to the fact that my immediate an some of my extended family are very close knitted. i mean my mother is mha best friend an parent she's mha rock i pretty much know her like the back of mha hand. my brother we just started to get close and i really do not want to miss out on ne of mha brotherly sister bonding thing we started to form. Mha cuzo, mi prima, mha ace boon coon, mha right hand wo-man shes awesome,fab,fierce and all. i do not know wut im going to do without her when i go. i wanna just put her in mha pocket an take her with me,pero sadly i can not. we talked about it all an she thinks i will succeed and i believe in me even on my lowest days i still keep positive. well im gettin a lil teary eyed an i do not like to cry so f**k outta hea wit that this is the end. F.Y.i. that is Cee and I on her way to the village.
ALWAYS REMAiN POSiTiVE
unspokenmindlessthoughts

random thoughts

soOoO all how wasz everyone's week did it end nicer than mine?? well just random thoughts are wut is about to spuew out of my fingertips....i'm supposed to be going shopping with my best friend/cousin in the westchester and the gall but idk we was supposed to been left since like idk 10am its now 12pm i love black ppl there awesome always workin on cptime(color people) but wutever not a big deal.
i need new sneeks and maybe a new bag and a outfit and maybe something else who knows i never reall know when i go shopping shizza just happends. thas pretty much it. bee back lataz
xOxOx

Thursday, January 22, 2009

whats on my nOggin.....

well i'm pretty new to this whole blogging stuff but i figured i'd give it a shot an let some ppl know what i'm all about and just to let go of pent up anger that i may have from the day as well as wuts on mha mind.
lets go down the list of whats been bothering me...
my lovely stupid phone will not charge ne longer mind u its the second of the fone brand i have gotten, and sum lady informed me that if the technicians were to jus look at it it could be $270 dollars and my insurance i havent spoken to them yet about it however if i cant get wut i want thru them i will have to come up with $385 next...
mha bestest to the endsest is leaving me to go to his basic training an he will not be until July goshness wut the frigid am i gonna do without mha right leg yo lOl nextus...
i'm at a crossroad about wut i should do about going to a school this semester shall i go to wack ass wcc OR make MONEY so that when i go away in the fall i got somethin to live on???
decisions decisions.....

Mr. Barack Obama

First i'd like to say Congratulations once more to our now official President Mr. Barack Hussain Obama!!
I watched the whole inauguration from way even before he and Mr.Biden even were ready to take the oath. I hadn't ne choice honestly to not watch it, when i went to work i decided on the fact that i was gonna watch my movie(ratatouille) however my boss had other ideas, as she said we must watch history--
in my mind i was thinking i can catch this at 10pm on channel 11 not saying i didn't wanna watch an partake in the live coverage of the historical moments that were taking place its just that i feel, that everyone whether yellow,white,black or purple expects this man to do ginormous things for us all. DO NOT GET ME WRONG I DO FEEL THAT HE WILL DO GREAT THINGS FOR US! However, i feel that not everyone should put so much pressure on him like honestly, he's already on the spot the spotlight is on him directly, scrutiny an all will come his way if something that we feel should be done is not done in the amount of time we feel it should be. i think that some FAIL to realize he's HUMAN and do not be upset or loose hope GOD FORBID if he messes up which i honestly do not feel he will.
Further more, i believe that some voted for him on the simple that he's black NEWS FLASH PEOPLE HE'S Bi-RACIAL and technically he's Hawaiian i think some should look at him as a minority yes but not just as a black man made it into office.
On another note can ne one tell me why some African Americans feel that he owes them something like he owes the whole race something?