lets play catch up real quick

Hello good morning all its 2:42am on a beautifuly brisk night here on the UA campus. i'm uo here visiting a friend or five of mine. i am a bit NICE so pardo9n the grammer. i know i have neglected to update but i reallly didn't have much to say and what i thought shud be said wasn't all that interesting to me so i gathered that u guys wouldn't wna read it either. But here it goes at this very moment i'm "exclusively dating" this guy who i believe to be may be the one i can start like something actually serious with just m,aybe biut im so n0ot rushing anything for the simple fact that when over analyze things and stress them they don't always work. at this very m0ment i'm with the flow aqnd so far flow has been ok until he dropped the i'm taking someone to prom thing!...ok lemme esplain he's 19 and he messed up while he was younger so he got left back but now hes got his ish together neway so... one night as we were talking i asked if he was going to his prom an he was like an "nah...thas over rated i rather just go to the after party..." and i was like sounds gd have fun and he was like ur coming with me and i was ok playa if dhas wut u feel is rii.so tuesday he aims me an say my gma already bought my promn ticket.so i spoke to myself for a minute an was like oh eff me rii. he's esplaing an wut not and so i proceed to ask who r u taking an he says his best friend so i goi ok fine. lets just say i wasn't thrilled but to be honest i didn't and wouldn't wna go in the first place so i had to be the bigger person an say ok babe u do what u gotta but i feel kinda egh about thye whole thing. neway onto something new so i went to this house party up here where friend goes and it was pretty rockin for the most part until they ran outta beer an so that was a quick egh time to find some where else to go, lOl. but instead we found this $1 pizza joint an ate there an took the bus home which was a mission in itself. well at the moment thats all my brain will allow me to write so enjoy the rest of your saturday duce duce guys!



ALWAYS REMAiN POSiTiVE

im bisack an i'm up way to early for my likings

Good morning all, i figured i'd blog this morning hopefully nothing will distract me at the moment. i tryed doin this post twice yesterday but didnt succeed like it just wasn't workin for me;but newho hows everybody been doing? i hope well. well lets pllay catch up. one of my fishies died Puchie may he rest in piece. it was so weird how he died i swear he didnt like my best friend kevii cause honestly as soon as he came he stopped moving an floated to the top. "( tear tear. What else uhm..my other close friend who was supposed to be going to the army,well they pushed his basic training date back once again and he's pissbut he'll live. Nothing real exciting if u ask me except for this one little thing, whiole i was at work sometime last month there was a girl who came into my class an was shy at first but came around due to my lovely 10 year old trapped in 20 year old's body kinda lOl but neway while we was watching this movie somebarbie and the pegases something to that effect. She told me that you know thats real, i was like what the flying horses she was like no silly theres angels that protect us and there's a kingdom too and the angels stay there cause they can't stay on the clouds cause they would fall through. i was speechless for a minute and was like thats right there is. this made me think omg kids are so innocent and so attentive and just darn out cute well some lOl. Now to more recent things i have recently found a new booskie/flow or as i say my new friend. see it goes a lil something like this... i met this kid a while ago informally but i still met him one day a hott minute ago and then sometime in january we met up again formally exchange names and stuff i just new him as the cute guy with the nice eyes. he happened to be friend with my cousin's 'friend' as well turns out to be cousins i was like holy crap wait what! but neway that he flirted with me and stuff but i didn't payit any mmind i chalked it up to him being slightly tipsy an seeing that i was completely sober i really didnt pay it any mind. i just laughed at his drunken jokes and just hung out with the boys, we exchanged at the time what was my number and since my phone at that time was off i didnt take his i just gave him mine. well 2-3 days later i got his s/n from my cousin who knew him first so i stole it from her but however never had the courage to hit him up. Well saturday while me and my girls were waiting for the bus to go to the galleria we saw him and my i say he looked hott as usual whilei was looking like uhm we'll just say not that dope but being that i'm me i was still cute lol, but neway he stopped talk to us and i couldnt help but to glanc at him nonchalantly from time to time until he was like soemthin something something you know i would love to give you a full body massage and i was like wait what!? he was like yeah i would like to give u a full body massage and i was like well arent u just smooh huh, quite bold arent u and some other were said but i'll leave it there. He asked for my number and i didn't oblige i gave it and as soon as i did that our bus came we parted ways and literally within 2 minutes of me being o the bus he text me and i was well okay then. as we were texting he was like well i wana be with you tonite is it possible we can chill? i was like oh uhm (shocked, kinda random) yes we can i figured what the frigid why not. While we were shopping he was texting me wwe texted pretty much through out the whole day and then he goes im home just figured i'd let u know i was like ok he was hit me up whenever you guys get back into our side of town, i agreed an conitnued to shop. we all agreed we were going to my cousins house and watch movies he came along with my cousins "friend" and we all just vegitated in front of the screen he sat in between my legs the whole time during one movie and we flirted whisper with each other his touch was so nice so smooth an senual we had to behave i did take notice that we have alot of sexual chemistry its ridiculous but whatever i was trying my best to remain very lady like no kissing nothing but that went out the window when he kissed me because i didnt say no because on the inside i so wanted him to. my friend sent me text message while we were siting next to each other talking about behave over there you two lol. we watched two movies and after the last was over my cousins 'friend' was ike hes leaving he was being weord that night but neway since they came together they left together he hugged me and kissed me on the cheek an i told him to text me later he responded with ofcoarse and he was gone. sunday rolls around and i do not know why but i was sitting there waiting for a textfrom him like crazy and i hate that feeling of being the waitee i was like nah F that and as soon as i put him out of mind he text me and asked me how was my sunday going after the sometime he stopped texting me and i was like u know like wtfrigged so i got a text from my homegirl janee we talked and she made me feel better about the situation because i did F up and text him an hour later when he wasnt texting me. i so wanted to kick myself. Through it all he text me back like 50 million hours later and from then on out we texted back to back. in the text convo we we're having he asked if he could see me yesterday and i said yes an since it snowed like a dickens here in good ol' NY he came o my house. well indeed booskie came over yesterday an met my mom and the lil bro and chilled with me an talked and kissed and just simply made me feel like i was literally on cloud nine. we spoke and he told me that he liked me for a whle but never said anything i was ike wtfrigged he was like im sorry i was shy. so with his truthfullness i admitted that even though i changed numbers i did an do have his s/n and never hit him up not once and he was like what!? i was like im shy wtfriged u want from me i didnt have the courage yet goshness lOl.But we chilled and talked fought over the remote. something about that man make me feel so comfortable and like its only the second time we chilled it felt like it was supposed to be but who knows as for now we shall just go with the flow!

ALWAYS REMAiN POSiTiVE
peace guyz

uhm. . .i do not know

Good Morning everyone, i hoppe you guys have a great day or at least try too if it already got off to a ugh start. Well i've been up since 7:30am on my day off for why i really honestly do not know! I pondered that thought when i was blending my smoothie at 8am weird huh but i didnt feel like honestly consuming something that would really make me feel heavy because i was going to eat oatmeal. Well anyway today might be the day i get my NEW phone i'm so excitied but more excitied of the fact that me and my mother went and got me my fishies i wanted for a while since she will not allow me to have my puppy that i really want. Which happens to be a t cup terrier which are so adorable. But any who i bought my 5 fishies which i named Biggie,Sportie,Gucci,Sushi and Puchie. I just moved my lovies from the kitchen table to the top of my book shelf, they look so cute ") swimming around with the Patrick Star figure i put in the tank that i had to buy unwillingly i just watned a bowl but neway. i just fed them too. But i must go i might blog later i have to go jumo in the shower and be out so peace and blessings!

ALWAYS REMAiN POSiTiVE

lets recap

So what's been up guys?? Let me first say hello! Now lets get down to the last 5 days that i've lived through an endured. Tuesday uhm i do not know why but i can not recall it except for the fact that i went to work. Wednesday hmmm...work and uhm lemme see more work. Thursday i went to with a smile on my face because it was pay day and then after work i went to see my aunt whos in the hospital who thankfully got discharged today. while i was there i spoke to cee an her an we laughed like as if she was never in the hospital. the location though grim an dreary didnt stop us from laughing like we didnt have a care in the world. i was there from like 5 till idk 7 i think and while i was there Cee had asked me to come with her back to hee house so that i could help her look at some colleges an we did Oh and her pops my lovely uncle took me to get my check very pleased by my check and after all we talked about an shizza we waited for her boyfriend to come pick us up which was to take me home an so that they can talk i guess but whatever. Friday i went to work and since no kids were there i got to sit around aim'ing all day later that night i went out with my buddy china man,Cee,my Joshie PoO, his sister, my bestest Puzzle and my lil brother from another mother. we all went to play pool and then out to eat. We talked we laughed we shared sex tips an advice with the youngins who seem to be confused obviously lOl but it was good. Came home at 3am only to pretty much pass the hell out cause i was dead tired. And that leads us to today i went an ran errands with my moms paid my cell phone bill, took back the movie i rented Nick An Norah's infinate playlist is a cute movie. My godson came an chilled with me for a lil bit it was good to see him finally gave him his xmas gift yes i kno that was a bad god mommy move. Ok this it idk what else i could say so lemme think hmm..Peace guys!!

ALWAYS REMAiN POSiTiVE

New Year New State of Mind

Okay so i was sitting here thinking and pondering about what have i been doing that i haven't been doing last year and the answer is uhm one thing uhm more positivity. So as i realized that the only new thing is more positivity i came to the realization that I'm getting older 21 is right around the corner for me 4 months an counting. I'm still doing some of the things I've already done i want some excitement and some good pain. I haven't worked out in so long it bothers me i want to transform my body into something even more special. I gotta get back on my workout grind. I felt so good working out the sweat the burn, the soreness the next morning was awesome i felt a sense of pride it was awesome. And then idk what happened i got lazy an started slacken womp womp but i'm really tired of being non energetic like i was. The pic of i love me is so true if you don't love you who will. And as for me i do love me genuinely but theres always room for improvement. Its time to workout again!! Another is accomplishing whatever i put my mind to. Another is being more people friendly like i already am but i feel i could be better with my people skills. I need to get my fashion game up like i am into fashion trust i know something bangin without a doubt but my funds do not match my taste goshness; but i got this in due time all will be up to par. I was wondering if anyone new a good gym that would not cost me an arm an a leg?? OH SHOUT OUT TO ALL 5 OF MY FOLLOWERS THANX SO MUCH FOR JUST TAKiNG THE TiME TO JUST READ SOME STUFF THAT GOES ON OR BOTHERS ME. HUGS AND KiSSESZ TO YOU ALL!! On another note Sunday i went to church an during the services they always ask if someone feels it in their heart to come to the LORD. My two best friends went up and went to be saved. As i was sitting up in the balcony with my friends "boy friend" and my closest friend's sis i started to cry idk why but i did. My cousin came an sat next to me and i was talking to her about going up and she was like if its heavy on your heart you should go an as she was saying that the preacher said i can tell that there's someone else out there wanting to come but was scared an i SWEAR HE WAS SPEAKING TO ME and ME ALONE. idk all of a sudden i found myself walking downstairs to him an by the time i got to the 3rd row i broke down i just couldn't help myself it was ridiculous. The pastors wife one of the deaconess's brought me downstairs to show me the next step in being SAVED. My hand and body was shaking like a stripper it was crazy i couldn't even write my name an number. Now when it was all said an done an me and Cee went back upstairs everyone wanted to hug me an every time someone hugged me i started to cry now this is out of my nature i dislike crying strongly specially in front of people. It came to the point where i couldn't hug anyone it was ridiculous. Ok as church ended i was trying to figure out what this all means.Guess what i came up with...don't worry I'll wait...yeah uhm nothing the whole day i was in like a trance like state it was crazy i laughed for like all of 2 minutes when my uncle came into my aunts hospital room an started pulling out food an beverages from the jacket of his soot he was like Houdini lmao. I read the bible and came up with stuff about what this means but still no clear answer i just do not know. OKAY I'm sorry for getting a little religious on you guys i just needed to vent is all an reach out to at least one. Thas it i'm finished, peace!

ALWAYS REMAiN POSiTiVE

xOxOx

lets play catch up!

Good morning to all its like 2:08am and uhm i'm getting from an ok night with the one's i call my luvies. They brought me home off the strength that i get up on time to go to church with two of them tomorrow however i jus had to play catch up. I figured since i have not been on to post or to read lately i should do it now since in a few i'm going to go take a shower an paint my nails so i can look nice for the lord. Lets see where to start first,hmmm... Ok big news my right leg(best friend) isn't leaving for the army as of yet so we still have time to jus be us together. Uhm my phone is being a stupid dummie jerk once again an not charging so i as well my other closest decided that i should just buy another an not bother with my insurance company cause its such a f'n hassle. So another PDA here i come! Uhm, what else.... tomorrow i supposed to go to church for like the first time a long time and i feel like i need it like i should have been before but idk i do not like sitting alone at church sometime i can be so restless if the sermon doesn't pertain to me. I've realized even more how i do need a second part time job like i needs more monies. like its necessary its detrimental completely crucial so i can sit back an relax an stack. While i was away from blogger i went an seen my bloody valentine good movie as well as notorious another good one. okay must cut it short gotta go take me a nice long hot shower.

ALWAYS REMAiN POSiTiVE

thoughts from today

Let me start off saying good evening to all!! I hope that everybodies day went well.My day was pretty egh...i guess you could say usual. I started thinking about my best friend leaving me to go to his basic training which is all the way in Georgia i believe its quite depressing if you ask me granted he's going to do what he feels is right for him so i guess its not that bad. But i will miss him without a doubt i will, i may jokingly say i can't stand him beat him up (he does the same with me its all in play) i do care for him deeply. i let him know that one night after chilling and he said he felt the same however i reinforced it even more with a second text but he never responded which through me off so i thought to just let it go. i had feelings for him other than friendship but additional to it.However, i dropped all thoughts of that a long time ago well sometime last year. He will remain my best friend and i'm cool with that. He leaves in exactly three days,he will mot be back until like July i would cry but like i said do not like to cry. Another thought that popped into my brain was how innocent some children are. While i was at work two children came into my daycare well center. Beofre i finish that thought let me explain what i do; i work in the family court house where i live and i work in the Children's Center there. Now that i explained where i work i will explain what i do. I play along with the children we get in that day depending on the age of the child i read to them, i play board games with them, and just be the kid that i have within me.We get the children that are either in the middle of their parents crap,seperated from their biological parents, jacked up fathers they have or mother or both. When i start my shirt which varies but neway we do not always get any kids in the center. Now back to my story we got these two girls in today Sparkle, 6 & Renee, 8. They were adorable playful children who have active imaginations as well as hyperactive mind set's. They came in at about 2pm and and didn't leave till 4pm. When they first arrived i took their coats and backpacks and asked them their names and where they went to school, they responded and they were so consumed with the fact that they could play with all the toys within their reach that they said could we really play with everything here? I said yes and they were off. 5 minutes into their playing this caucasion man appears in the room and ask's are the children here to the mother, and she said yes they were my boss who very rudely said you have to wait for the mother to bring them to you outside of the center. Sometimes i wonder if my boss has any manners. Any who-- the girls step out and go with their new lawyer i later found out. While they were out i assist the mother with the intake sheet and i realize that she doesn't spell very well. And it made me wonder how does she read to them at night. I also figured out that she doesn't read all that well either so i took it upon myself to fill out the intake sheet for her. So ne who to the part that mad me realize how innocent children are. The oldest Renaee goes to her mother i like her speaking of me, saying that i was really nice, and that wishes to stay forever. Mind you she has never been to the center before and was only there so far for like 10 or 15 minutes. it made me wonder do they cling to everyone they meet that is nice to them it was so genuine and so like heartfelt that it made me wanna be a teacher even more than i am now. I do not know what their mother was their for but i do know shes a respondent to whom ever petitioned her there. But maybe that's just me but yea. Another thing was so while i was waiting for the bus to go home from work, i was rockin to my ipOd and chatting on facebook until my hands got to cold so i went back to just listening to my ipOd i seen this kid i used to bop around with along with other friends from when i used to smoke and drink and thought i was cool. i turned around thinking maybe he didn't see me but that was a bust casue sure enough he did like usual. He stopped talked eyed me up and down ( i really dislike when a guy starts a conversation and you can feel their eyes roaming an no longer looking at you in your face, ugh disgusted) ne who he was speaking to me about how he was just coming from his job as a waiter and i said that was cool because around here you can make almost $250 a shift. he was like its cool for rii now. i was like okay understood and then i persisted to ask about school meaning was he enrolled in school. And guess what the answer was uh no," no more school for me i'm done" his words exactly. The last time i checked he was in night school for high school and that to me alone is a bit of a turn off a non educated man that didn't want to broaden his horizons. I feel that every one from every ethnic group should educate himself farther than just high school its not appealing to me if your not at least considering college-community or 4 years heck even a trade school like come on there's somuch bigger things than settling for to live and work in New Rochelle. But i swear that kid has a thing for me but i think its a lust thing an he's inly like 18 or 19, as my momma always told me you don't date younger you date older and wiser. But thas pretty much it for my day at least for now, yea thas it.

impulsive thought/statement: i must say that ever since i started to blog i looked around for some other's blog and i must say that i came across one that caught and captured my eye since like last week when i started blogging, the author of the blog has captivated me and my love to read something interesting you must and should check out KIMBOLACITY its real,humourus and just all out original she keeps you wondering at least me.

ALWAYS REMAiN POSiTiVE

xOxOx